Already April though. Absurdly good progress.

Oh dear. You've been a bit stoic recently, so I had assumed things were very much on the mend/getting more bearable.

Raising a glass to you Col ( sadly, it is a not terribly good brand of Gin and not a "Cuban product" but I had company recently and they drank all my good stuff).

"Pain passes, but the beauty remains"

This too shall pass.

Any of the named white blood cells grown brothers or sisters yet?

You might consider medical MJ if you're having nausea, pain, or appetite issues.

ya abu l-maal,

just make sure you'll name the FIRST new white blood cell after eerie. i'm sick & tired of her jealousy.

cheers,

--raf*

Bloody right.

We do not wish for you to become the poster child for viatical benefits. Perhaps an escape to the Berkshires would be in order. Canyon Ranch, that sort of thing.

Did spot the Wolf article when it came out.

L, don't hesitate to tell me to get lost (I trust you won't when appropriate) for not being fun about cancer - and it wouldn't be a bad thing in the sense it would teach me how to speak in such circumstances. It's just that I didn't know who to tell this - this is ridiculous to say, I mean, I don't even know anyone of you guys and we only had a few internet exchanges in the end.

Anyway, remember my ex-employee, the only one I'd never let go because she was quite exceptionnaly skilled but who ended up leaving because of brain cancer? Well, I just learnt she gave up. She didn't undergo the surgery and the medication, which a few months ago had some good probability to save her. I don't understand and man, I hate it.

You, keep up fighting. Or you'd deserve to be tortured til you think your treatment is good.

Actually, that's a message I'd probably mean for that young lady.

Seriously, I'm glad you're fighting. I appreciate and respect winners. And that too is not something I grant easily.

You know, I understand the woman. Before I began this I just didn't understand what a bloody fucking drain chemo is.

Every once in a while I think, "If I ever have to go through this again, I won't bloody do it." The annoying thing is if it works, there's still relapse potential and all that.

I have to say this is one bloody annoying experience.

Yeah, I can understand that. But since it's hopefully just a temporary issue, it's better to just go through it, do whatever is necessary, and think about when it's finished. At least, that's how I tend to think in difficult moments.

Anyway, I'm crossing fingers (or as a friend of mine would put it, doing the crescent sign) so we finally get that drink and the only worry you'd have is to tell me about how you got stuck with bloody menaers.

i would like to buy you a book.
do you have this?

No, actually.